Negative Emotions are Normal |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 31, 2009 |
| Today I am beginning my 37th day of abstinence. I continue to be very grateful, humble, and joyous about this event.
I have been examining the negative aspects of my mind during the last several blogs. I am very glad I am going through this process. I believe I am not looking at things in a negative light and then attracting them to myself (which would be one aspect of the law of attraction). Instead, I am seeing the reality of life. The mind does suffer and the min... |
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Self Hate and Arrogance |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 30, 2009 |
| Thanks to those of you who commented on the blog from yesterday. It's funny how a little encouragement from your fellow man/woman can inspire us to keep moving forward.
The blogs in the past couple of weeks have been discussing how the (my) mind, ego, or eating disease on a consistent basis comes up with negative thoughts.
We have discussed that this is natural for the mind to create these thoughts since we all possess a suffering mind. I am now seeing that&... |
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Five Bowls of Chili |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 29, 2009 |
| Abstinence - Refraining from Overeating and Eating Unhealthy Foods (this, of course, is just my definition)
Yesterday I had a minor upset and before I took time to emotionally feel this upset and let it pass, I had consumed five bowls of chili.
First I would like to discuss the upset. I said something to someone I should have refrained from saying. I have since apologized for my actions. The quicker the apology, the quicker is my return to emotional/s... |
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Self Pity |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 28, 2009 |
| Today I would like to write about my being self-centered and gravitating toward self pity. Then see how this is directly connected to overeating.
When I look at situations in my life that do not go "exactly my way," I am not peaceful and serene. I become agitated. This has to do with my being self-centered. When I think about times I have lost money in business dealings, or when my casino business was not doing well, or when I would go to a party and people were... |
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Radio Today |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 27, 2009 |
| This afternoon, once again I am going to be doing my radio show on KLAV-1230 AM on the Las Vegas radio dial. It airs every Tuesday at 4:00 pm. If you would like to listen to it on the Web, go to www.1230klavam.com. You can hear it on the Net anywhere in the world.
I am less nervous to do this show than I have been in the past. However, I am still somewhat anxious. My ego/disease wants to... |
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The Mind Suffers |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 26, 2009 |
| Starting day 32 of wonderful abstinence today. Yea! (Abstinence being refraining from overeating and eating food that is not healthy for my body.)
The last several days I have been writing about the games that my ego mind likes to play to seduce me into getting back into overeating and/or eating unhealthy food. Games like fear of rejection, procrastination, isolation, being negative about myself and others, thinking that healthy eating is boring, worrying about... |
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The "Not Enough" Game |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 26, 2009 |
| Today I am starting my 31st consecutive day of abstinence (refraining from overeating and making bad food choices). It feels like a million bucks! (I have a million bucks so I know what that feels like.)
I made a list of the games/thoughts that my disease/ego mind likes to play. The ego clearly wants to keep me in my overeating cycle so it has the control over me that it seeks. The game I am writing about today is this: There is not enough. Sometimes my mind likes to... |
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Perfect Imperfect Abstinence |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 23, 2009 |
| I have certain tools that I use to keep my ego at bay pertaining to overeating. I call a food plan into a buddy each morning, I speak with this buddy daily. I meet with a group each day to discuss the subject of overeating. I do some reading and writing. I make sure I go to the gym and work out. When I do these things every day, I know I am working my abstinence program. I call abstinence refraining from compulsive eating and the realization that it cannot be done alone -- no iso... |
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This is Not Fun |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 22, 2009 |
| When I am eating healthy for a certain period of time, usually two or three days, my mind starts to hound me. It tells me playing this healthy food game is not fun and is actually boring. It tries to convince me to get off this health kick and start enjoying life. It tells me, "I only live once." Problem is, when I listen to that part of my mind, in the end I wind up 50 pounds heavier and consumed with miserable feelings about myself and others.
I have list... |
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The Negativity Game |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 20, 2009 |
| Another tool my ego likes me to use is playing the negativity game. It suggests that I be negative about myself, about other people or about situations that arise during the day. Sometimes I discover that I demean myself by thinking, "I cannot do this, I am not good enough." Or that I become upset with myself for making certain decisions that do not go my way.
Sometimes I get caught up in in being negative about others and gossiping ab... |
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You're Invited! |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 19, 2009 |
| I have been hosting a radio show on Tuesdays for the last three weeks. It addresses the issues of those of us with eating addictions and how to overcome them so we can enjoy life as it is intended to be. Due to my fear of rejection game that my ego likes to play with me, I really did not want anyone to listen to the show.
I now want to officially invite you to listen to the show each Tuesday from 4:00 to 5:00 pm on radio station KLAV - 1230 on your AM dial. ... |
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Fear of Rejection |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 19, 2009 |
| I just came back from the gym and would like to share with you something about FEAR OF REJECTION. I walked up to an older gentlemen (a stranger to me) and complimented him on his workout routine. Normally I would have not even considered doing this, since my ego normally says, "Who knows how this man is going to react to you. Better just mind your own business."
The gentlemen was actually receptive to my compliment and we exchanged pleasantries for 15 to 20 seconds. About... |
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Procrastination |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 17, 2009 |
| I have now completed Day 22 of asbstinence from compulsive eating. Yea!!!!!!
I am feeling peaceful, happy and joyous.
Today I would like to discuss procrastination and how it affects overeating for me and maybe you.
I have had a messy desk in my office for probably most of my adult life. I would actually steer people away from my office to avoid the embarrassment.
There were always items that needed to be done and I would normally delay a a lot of... |
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22 Days |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 16, 2009 |
| Today I am starting my twenty-second day of abstinence from food. Naturally, I am experiencing much peace and serenity.
People who belong to a twelve-step program are encouraged to use certain tools to stay abstinent from food (REFRAINING FROM COMPULSIVE OVEREATING). Twelve-step Programs actually have eight different tools they recommended.
Our EGO minds also have tools they use in an attempt to keep us in our addiction. I recently made a list of... |
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Radio, Part 2 |
| Author: Gary Mahoney Date: October 07, 2009 |
Yesterday afternoon was my second “Last Cookie Club” radio show. I was much less nervous than the week before. Part of it had to do with getting that first program under my belt. Also, I was fortunate enough to have two guests, Claudia and Maggie, who are members of the local Overeaters Anonymous group.
Other than mixing up their names (something I will work on), I think the interview went well. Both women were articulate and very honest about their ongoing... |
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